This birthday is extremely special to me; I almost didn’t make it to see this day. On April 14 of this year, I was rear-ended on the Pacific Coast Highway in Malibu, CA, while sitting at a crosswalk. You can read more about it here. After the first impact I told God, I cannot die, I haven’t lived yet! I made a promise to myself that day to appreciate and enjoy every second of life and live in the moment…and so I did!
This year has been full of self-love and self-discovery for me; I learned a lot about myself. I let go of past regrets that I kept reliving in my mind. I grew a better understanding of why I am, the way that I am and who I am. I started getting out of the house more. I treated myself to brunches, dinners and the movies. I attended several concerts, visited museums, went Kayaking, whale watching and much more. I did all of these things alone and had a wonderful time!
Every year for my birthday I buy myself a cake and some balloons. I don’t think anyone should be without these two items on their birthday. This year I added flowers, and not just any flowers, but yellow roses. I love the symbolic meaning of yellow roses and what they mean to me: friendship (I am my best friend), optimism (I have an optimistic outlook on life and believe that all things will turn out the better), and joy (I stay grateful).
I had plans to drive to San Diego and go horseback riding on the beach, and take a helicopter ride over the ocean and out to dinner, but Mother Nature had a different plan. When I woke up and realized that I had to change my plans due to the rain, I thought, what am I going to do now? I don’t have any family here in LA, my friends are out of town celebrating Thanksgiving with their family, plus I made the decision to spend my birthday alone, I can’t let the rain and gloom outside put a damper on my day. So I decided to do another one of my favorite things: a photo shoot! I made my face up, put on my satin robe and pearls and used my birthday treats as props, and flicked away.
I love these pictures, I see my inner happiness. Happiness that is not dependent on a great outdoor adventure or who called to wish me a happy birthday. It’s pure joy from within, from me enjoying, loving and celebrating myself, being in a thankful and grateful state of mind. I am elated to be alive to celebrate another year of life.
Tell me, have you ever spent your birthday alone? If so, what did you do?